Monday, March 28, 2016

New Mom

I've created this blog to remain anonymous while I ponder the family relationships that I have. It's not that I want to dwell on the negative because that would be deciding to live in hell on earth, but I hope to find a way to work through issues (albeit fairly minor) and to "release" tension surrounding them. A lot of self-reflection will occur as I try to reduce having bad reactions to the things people say and do. I am very influenced in this endeavor by the book The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz.

I can tell you, nothing prepares you for dealing with relationships quite like when you become a mother. Luckily, my husband is fantastic and supports me in every way--so I don't expect that to be an issue--although I may talk about our relationship's mutual discoveries. He took good care of me tonight and today as a flu sufferer. Thank you, my darling.

The title Gender Envelope is one I penned talking with my husband one day when we were discussing women and motorcycles. It seems to me that a woman riding a motorcycle is pushing her gender envelope (hooray!).

Sunday, December 05, 2010

Letter to Myself, February 10 2011

Dear Person,

If you are still using anti-depressants, good, because they help you transition from being a full-time mom, to a mom with a job.

Your job is to do the best you can every day.  First and foremost that means keeping yourself healthy and strong so that you can do all the things you love to do, and take care of those you love.

Make sure you're exercising every day, even if it's only 15 minutes, and especially if it's only 15 minutes.

Make sure you're doing your best to eat a lot of fresh fruit and vegetables, fish, lean meat, and healthy oils.

Eat chocolate whenever you want.

Dedicate at least three mornings a week to nothing but art.  Creating it.

You can be selfish with your time and time spent with your children, we only live once.

You will be a happy mother.

With love and compassion,
Yourself

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Notes to self (Part 1)

Set an alarm in my calendar for every important event, I might not remember it alone.

Don't dump my anti-depressant without other major and sustained lifestyle changes because it really does work.

Don't tell people that I'm depressed because all they see are the reasons why I shouldn't be, which just makes me feel worse for being depressed when life is good.

Just because I converted to a different religion and feel like I belong to that religion doesn't mean that other people understand that.  Quit taking it personally.

Monday, April 19, 2010